So for those of you who don’t know, I have clinical depression. I take medication for said depression because otherwise I get really nasty symptoms. However, unlike many people, I don’t feel sad when depressed. I don’t really feel anything. It’s like suddenly you wake up and you realize you feel empty. You have little flashes of self-hate but mostly just emptiness. Once you come out of this funk you realized how much you need socializing, friends, and positive self thinking. However the scary part about my clinical depression is that I’ve always felt empty and a bit unworthy of other people’s attention. It’s normal for me and I’ll be dealing with these feelings, or lack thereof, for the rest of my life.
Not sure why, but I had to write this all down.